guys please, I cannot answer all 0 messages
you ever feel so in love with someone but get so afraid to let them in & when you finally do let them in all you can think about is how badly you’ll fuck it all up? how all the wrongs you’ve went through have only kept resurfacing. how angry & psychotic you can get but hold it all back? that your old ways will only come back to get you. the pain of before only pierces deeper the more you try to forgive.. because.. you feel like the more you let your guard down.. the more it gives them leeway to do it again. no matter how hard you try to move on from the pain it still haunts you, then someone comes along & can actually read you; read you out loud.. because they’ve took the time to piece you together. every broken piece. every jagged edge. and now they’re standing there waist deep in the pity that was your past. only trying to fix what the last one broke.
you don’t deserve them, but they only want you.